One thing I have realized, as I get older is that increasing in age does not automatically make one wiser. Wisdom is gained by intentional participation in our trials, and a willingness to confront our wounds.
The work is very difficult and hats off to all those who are active participants in the quest towards their own growth. The path of self liberation, the ‘hijrah’ towards one’s authentic self is not for the faint of heart. I see you. When we think about our development over the course of our lives, it was not easy to go through. Why? Because to truly see oneself is painful. It is not an easy decision to choose consciousness over autopilot. To sit with uncomfortable emotions and to forgo denial. It is not an easy feat to choose to fully engage with the test in front of you. Many go through a lifetime repeating the same patterns, and cling unto long held beliefs that no longer serve them. Judging others, numbing, and spiritually bypassing our own needs is so easy. It’s seductive because it lets us escape the painful parts of ourselves.
But you chose not to. You chose to insert sticks into the cycle of outdated patterns and ways of being, to chart a new course. And through this, Allah bestowed wisdom upon you, that missed you years ago. So you see the solution is wisdom- and that is gained by not running from, but towards oneself. “Allah has not tested His slaves with anything but also provided them with what helps them sustain themselves against that trial and test. This is the perfect Wisdom of Allah, that He tests His slaves with the disease, and yet helps them find the cure.” Ibn Al Jawzi
The truth about trials is that they are our mirrors, reflecting back to us what needs healing. I believe that wisdom is a gift given by Allah, and with it we are given an opportunity to integrate all the parts that are buried within us. It is in a way remembering or a rediscovery of a ‘self’ we lost.
Do not be like those who forgot Allah so He made them forget their own selves.